It's Almost Over

It's almost over.  As panicked as I am, I also feel a sense of relief.  Finals will be over a week from Friday and I can just take a deep breath and 'chill' for a few weeks.  Yes I'm scared for the results of the finals, but it will all work out in the end.

This has been a tough semester, and not just because of the class content.  Also of the stuff going on outside of school.  I feel like I've been beat up and then thrown in the gutter.  I am so tired, both physically and emotionally.  I keep falling apart and I looked in the mirror the other day and thought 'that's not me.  I don't know who that is, but it's not me.'

I couldn't figure out what's wrong with me.  I told my mom that I've fallen apart but never like this.  She told me that I've never had so many things happen at once.  It's true, I feel like everything just keeps piling on top of me.

It will be okay, and I will be fine.  This is a huge speed bump but after I get over this, I'll come out stronger, happier, and a better student and person. I will learn from this trial and move on.  It's hard to see that right now, but it will happen.  :)

Oh and the losing weight thing...it's going to happen.  I just feel like I can't add that stress to my life right now.  Not going 'crazy' but not worrying about it right this second.  But it will happen and it will happen soon. :)